'I want to change'

All photos were taken by me.

'I want to change,' she said. She was herself, really, but she did not act it. Saying what she meant exactly and with a moderate crust made of cynicism (like sugared almonds but thicker)-- it wasn't her style. (And neither was being silent and melancholy every day.) So she would become a new and gentle wind--and be like a snake, shedding its old, rough skin which hides and restricts its real self. She was afraid of snakes, though. Instead, she would be like a candle--the flame that brightens after the excess wax is poured away (or shaken off by a careless hand)--yes, that is what I'll be: a candle, a little light.

Postscript: I am feeling so, so much better now that it is summer vacation (though I hate the heat). I was in a fashion show yesterday (it wasn't much, but it was my first time so I was excited). Also, I recently finished watching a Japanese animation series called Fairy Musketeers (or Otogi Juushi Akazukin), which I'd first heard of over a year ago on Skye's old blog, The Princess Portal, and the series is now one of my favourites. (My writing actually has a few references to two of the songs from it; I really like its music.) In a little over a week, I'll be leaving for England.