Monday, January 2, 2012

The first song


I'm sorry that I've been so inactive lately; just when I think that I'll have time to keep my blog updated and keep up with comments, I end up being busy! But to make up for it, here's a fairly long post: 



First, I've posted my first song cover! It's a Japanese pop song called 'Yellow' (with an English translation in the description); the main reason I haven't posted in so long is that I wanted to have done my first cover, and I knew I wanted for this to be my first video. 'Yellow' is a very happy and uplifting song, and I thought it was perfect for my first song, as the lyrics fit perfectly with my reasons for singing now. It's a fairly electronic song, but I plan on doing other types of music, too. (Or, perhaps "other styles" would be better, considering that most of the music I like and feel comfortable singing is Japanese... but I'll make certain to put a translation of the songs in the descriptions when I can!)

I've also changed the appearance of my blog; I feel like my tastes (in everything, really) have been changing to be more cheerful, colourful, and bright... Much like all of the sweet colours and sparkling things I like more and more, I think I'm becoming more honest with myself--like I've been finding the courage to be honest. I'm always creating whimsical, mysterious things, but I don't think I'm really so whimsical or mysterious at all, or at least not much, or maybe in a different sort of way; I've begun to care less for seeming elegant or ladylike, and now I say the silly things I want to say and wear things with glitter and sometimes dance in the hallways during morning break at school. (I suppose, looking back, my blog has really changed along with my personality over this past almost-year, hasn't it?)

Also, a few months ago my art teacher was kind enough to help me with a photo shoot of some of my artwork (well, she really did most of the work during the shoot). I haven't posted much art here, so I thought I would post the pictures! ...Or rather, I would post the pictures, but right now I have no way of getting them onto this computer. I promise I'll post them soon, though!

Next is what I'm most excited about: I'm working on a picture novella series loosely based on The Nutcracker and the Mouse King which I'm going to post in installments here. It's always been one of my favourite fairy tales, but I've also always found it a bit... disappointing. Eventually I thought, 'Why not just write my own version?', intending for it to be a short fairy-tale. As I thought of more ideas for it, though, it grew into more of a full-length fantasy story, which I've always wanted to try writing. 

(Well, actually, I have been working on that sort of story--for about three years now!--but I feel as though it will still be developing for several more years; almost like I was told in a dream that it would be the best and most important thing I'd ever write, so years of thinking and feeling will need to be put into it. Some things I've posted here were written from that story's herione's point of view.)

Anyway--I'd originally intended to call it a "light novel series"--the light novels I'd read were all short novels with a lot of illustrations--until I looked it up and found that it's more characterised by being simple and fast to read, and not always a short novel with pictures. Since the plot will be fairly complex and my writing style isn't always simple, I decided to call them "picture novellas" instead. The current title is The Manipulator and the Clockmaker, but I'm not sure whether I really want to call it that or not, so it will probably be changed.

Here is the character design for the main character, Marie:


(Well, really, it's the version of it I posted on my Facebook page, as I can't get to the actual file right now; the real character art is fixed a little bit (and less blurry), so I'll post it along with the other pictures.)

Hopefully I will have more time to post and comment from now on. Thank you, everyone, for always being so kind to me!

Monday, October 31, 2011

If my voice can reach you, then...


I'd forgotten that I could sing. It was what I've always done, too--I've wanted to sing. Before I drew, before I told stories, before I made dresses or cakes or danced, maybe even before I was a Lost Girl, I've wanted to sing. I've all but forgotten that wish.

Before I could do anything else, I'd wanted to become a musician. The grown-ups always told me the same things; 'It's hard to become a singer.' 'Singing isn't a respectable profession.' I still wanted to sing, but I learnt to do different, more respectable things. Soon, though, the "Roman thoughts" flooded my mind. Build. Run forward. Never ever waste time. Now I only sing to myself when I draw or tell stories, or when I cook or make dresses or walk. 

None of those things are quite enough, though. 'To live' is the only thing that's enough; I know that. But--if I just live, I can never reach you, can I? If you couldn't see anything at all, the drawings, the words on the paper, the frilled skirts--they would mean almost nothing. If you could see anything at all, the drawings, the words on the paper, the frilled skirts--there would be too much which they simply  could not tell you. If I could sing a song to reach you, then...

I won't abandon everything to sing, but it seems that I still love singing best.

I just hope that you can still hear this little, childish voice.

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Firstly, I'm sorry that I haven't been commenting or posting lately; I'd thought before that I finally had time to keep up with my blog...

Also, this isn't only a piece of writing, but a sort of announcement: I've started a YouTube channel for dancing, voice acting, and, of course, singing. (A few years ago, I used to do a lot of singing and voice acting on YouTube.) I haven't posted anything yet, though, because I just bought a new microphone yesterday (my old one was broken), and my throat just began to heal today (I lost my voice for the past few days and still need to rest a bit). I am so excited to begin singing again, though; music comes closest to expressing all of my thoughts--all of my feelings. (I also absolutely love voice acting, albeit not as much as singing.) Also, the channel is very... pink